| To Andrea: |
[Mar. 26th, 2008|02:41 am] |
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| | *~* I Think We're Alone Now -- Tiffany*~* | ] |
We first met in 6th grade. You were crazy and had me laughing. I even think we got into trouble numerous times for disrupting class or something. I remember you inviting me to your 6th grade birthday party at Trebble Mill park. Your mom had the pavillion saved for you and a bunch of people were invited. I remember showing up...and being the only one who did. That day we talked about how hot Brandon Lee was and you taught me the joys of using Twizzlers as straws for canned Cokes.
That year we became close. Right before school was over you gave me your tin Kerroppi lunchbox with your name written HUGE on the inside. During summer break you stayed with your Grandmother in Florida and participated in Soap Box derbys...which you won. You sent me a button with your name and 1st place...the button you won.
The rest of our middle school career was interesting. I will never forget how much you hated one person you told me at lunch, "I would scoop their eyeballs out with a spoon, fry them, and feed them to my cats".
High school we remained friends. Your hair turned from red, to purple, to aqua. Super curly hair. And you were stil crazy.
You moved away in the middle of high school and we lost touch. A few years later our friend runs into you at college. I got to see you again at our friend's wedding. You told everyone how you'll never forget about me being to only one showing up to your birthday party...and how much it meant to you.
I was going to send you an email last night. And today I find out you're gone. I'm crushed that I'll never see you again. I hate that your crazy ass isnt living life, having fun, and getting more of those kick ass tattoos.
I'll miss you Andrea. Say hi to Brandon for me.... |
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| I'm thinking.... |
[Dec. 22nd, 2007|02:44 am] |
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..of dropping this LJ.
Many of you I rarely talk to and who gives a damn about what I have to say?
Meh. |
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| THAT'S what that is... |
[Jul. 22nd, 2007|06:37 pm] |
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I have come to the conclusion that the radio station we listen to at work (XM channel 24 or 25 I believe) is the home of all your favorite(or least favortie) 80's soundtracks.
With these 80's gems, they sneak in a 70's disco hit.
It's annoying. I swear if I hear "Footloose" or "Against the Odds" one more time.... |
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| Woo hoo! |
[Jul. 13th, 2007|05:02 pm] |
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I got the OK to take 5 days to go to California to see Whitty and the new baby!! I'm sooo excited!!!
Now to save the money. LOL.
*does happy dance*
Friday the 13th have always been good luck for me. Hopefully you guys are having a good day too!!
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| How sad... |
[Jun. 12th, 2007|10:02 pm] |
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One of the last seasons of "The Real World" I ever watched was when it was in San Deigo.
My favorite roomie Frankie died Saturday. She had cystic fibrosis and died at 25.
Sad :(
Frankie Abernathy Dead at 25 |
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| Just really quick... |
[May. 3rd, 2007|09:20 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | Thunder and Lighting show going on outside. | ] |
Things are going really well.
I've lost weight.
I've quit smoking.
I'm exercising 4 times a week.
I'm going back to school this summer, and by the beginning of next year, I should have a stable well-paying job.
I'm actually clear now. I have thoughts in order and I feel really good. No more chest pain...I haven't felt this good in a long time.
And if any of youin's are reading this, I'm gonna be at GARF this Sunday. So..maybe I'll see some of ya there. :) |
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| Not to cause a scene or anything.... |
[Feb. 16th, 2007|11:55 pm] |
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But that Mooninite avatar has got to be the coolest thing I've seen in a long time.
Thanks for readin'. :) |
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| Let the madness begin!!!! |
[Nov. 27th, 2006|11:34 am] |
Ok so, about this time of year, I'm still not into any holiday spirit. Why? Because people hit the "Idiot" switch at midnight the Friday morning after Thanksgiving. So it ruins it. That and when you work retail for so long and Christmas starts before Halloween is even over, things lose their luster. But oh well..
I dont know what the hell is up, but my hip is really starting to bother me more. Its that dull ache in the hip joint from my accident a few years ago. Must be the weather...
Anydamnways, on my agenda this week:
1. Get most Christmas shopping done
2. Phase out the word "whatev" from my vobcaulary. Its starting to get on my nerves too..
3. Start getting patterns and ideas for costuming
And so far that be all...hopefully with a sprinkling of seeing some friends for drinks might be in order...
And lemme tell you...this weekend BLEW. I mean we're talking goats were involved. Went out of town and my host was "sick" and "too weak and tired" and all this B.S. So what you were running a fever? Big flippin deal. No excuses dammit.
**DISCLAIMER*: I had a fabulous weekend. The person reading will get this. I actually did have fun :) **
I hope everyone enjoyed their Thanksgiving. I did! And uh...I'm done rambling. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|09:54 pm] |
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| | *~*Stephen Lynch- Vanilla Ice Cream*~* | ] |
Not many of you, but I'm bored!
1. Name:
2. Age/Birthday:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:
7. Favorite Book/Comic Book:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Favorite TV Show:
10. Favorite Video Game/Board Game:
11. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?:
12. Would you give me a kidney?:
13. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
14. If you could change anything about your current life, would you?:
15. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?: |
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| No one's gonna take me alive.... |
[Jul. 24th, 2006|01:51 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | *~*Dropkick Murphys "Tessie"*~* | ] |
So i cant sleep because i slept in until 2pm. I havent done that in a long LONG time.
I had an exhausting Saturday. Worked from 6am until 10 am. Decorated a wedding cake at home. Delivered said cake to Gainesville. Waited an hour and half for flowers that never showed. Took flowers from the real flower arrangements to finish cake. Drove home to get directions for dance practice. Met up with someone in Cumming to drive to practice. Didnt get there until 7(Notice i havent said anything about a break, eating, etc..) Practice until 12:30 am. Finally ate something at waffle house at 2am. Blah.
So yeah, I'm all kinds of thrown off due to the extent of my sleeping in.
And of course, works a bitch and I need a new job. I went to ask about apprenticing to be a piercer. Thought it would be interesting.
And did I mention I didnt get paid for that wedding cake I did? Sucks huh? wasnt my idea. I was volunteered.
But, I did see Clerks 2 and it was funny as hell. That was a good thing to wrap up the weekend.
I need to meet someone. I'm getting kinda lonely.
That is all. But to just sum it all up...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have a good week. |
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| Yeah ok so.... |
[Jul. 12th, 2006|11:16 pm] |
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A few things on my mind as of late:
1. I'm getting kinda lonely in the relationship department. Wanna fight about it?
2. The problem is, I want someone back....and its scary.
3. I'm sad because the awesome guy who did the tattoo on my neck is married with a kid. Dammit.
4. I need a job. SERIOUSLY. This is getting to be ridiculous.
5. My birthday is Friday and I'm not really excited about it. I dont know why.
6. I want a party...but not at a bar or restaurant or anything. I want a themed party. And I have no where to throw it.
7. I know more shit about pop culture in the 80s than I should be allowed.
8. I think I'm slipping back into my depression state. Put on a happy face :)
9. I should be packing to go to Ohio this weekend. And I'm not. And that sucks.
10. Am I doing something wrong? Why can't I get a decent guy?
11. I need more tattoos. Or a peircing. Something to take my mind off my life for a moment.
12. One of the best lyrics EVER in a song: "Things I've held sacred, then I dropped".
13. My car BLOWS. And money sucks.
There you have it kids. Take it all in. Maybe someone will understand. I sure as hell dont. |
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| Oh my god, no way! |
[Jun. 19th, 2006|07:51 pm] |
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| |  yet blah | ] |
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| | Oingo Boingo "Dead Man's Party" | ] |
I've come to the conclusion I cannot live my life without quoting the family guy at least once daily. I suck.Not that I dont have a life, but if I'm really into something, I can absorb it quick. Hence, all the quotes.
I am applying to be a subsitute teacher for gwinnett county. just the surrounding middle and high schools. Elementary is not for me, sorry.
I've felt like blah the past couple days. I think my diet and the fact that I'll be surfing the crimson wave soon has got me all blahish.
Its cool I've found a new friend. We keep each other sane. And we have the best time. He's an asshole, but he cracks me up.
Is it weird I'm getting nervous about Dragon*Con already? The more i keep talking to people, the more I find out that they're gonna be there. And dancing with Master F and knowing some of my friends are gonna be there makes me kinda queezy.
So thats all I got. I figured I havent updated in a while, so you know...thought I'd post something.
Toodles! |
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| Well then... |
[Apr. 17th, 2006|01:12 pm] |
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Evidently my happiness has upset some people. I didn't realize that I was suppose to be misrable forever.
I dont know what juvenille games I've been playing, but I guess its done. I dont know what I was doing to play these "games" you speak of, but its done. Its a sad thing when you spend a year of your life taking care of someone that doesnt want to live anymore. Someone you constantly have to remind them that they are loved.
And perhaps this person doesnt remember a few conversations over the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays that would probably drive me away...you know "Think about what you're getting into. You deserve better than this..." And so forth. And yeah, I know what you said to my family Christmas morning. The end to us was inevitable. You were also looking for a way out. This wasnt one sided.
Everything you said to do, go to Best Buy, dont email, call, or write. Done, done, and done. A week ago actually. My emails were for something else.
The only thing that bothers me the most is the whole money issue. Driving twice a week to see you, cutting into my work time. I think we're even. Thats not even an issue.
I did love you. I was happy with you. You drove me away with your negative outlook on everything. I'm living a different life now. I'm enjoying myself, my friends, and my family. I'm a happier person not having someone bring me down. Living a happy life for two people gets tiring. Maybe I was just tired.
I bent over backwards through everything. The accident, the surgeries, the family B.S., throwing of walkers, the suicide attempts, the mood swings, the pills, the disapointment of knowing the man I loved was never going to be the same, the pain, physical therapy, spongebaths, many nights at the hospital, the doctors visits, never having good news....you're right. I was a gold digging bitch.
If you'll excuse me, I'm going to live my life now.... |
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| Feeling good... |
[Apr. 16th, 2006|02:23 pm] |
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I know its been a while, and I dont know if many people even read this anyways...
I actually feel a lot better these days. Staying bust with work, I got another tattoo, I have good friends, and its been really nice lately.
I've realized I havent been comparing guys to him anymore. Its a good thing, it means I'm starting to move on.
My family has been really good too, which is weird. My sister and I have been getting along a lot more and I've had less issues with the parentals.
Its hard to type out all this because I have no complaints. Everythings dandy.
I cant say that I'm uber happy about everything, but all-in-all, I'm feeling great :)
Hope you guys are too! |
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| I think of him.... |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|08:01 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | This one! | ] |
I think of him when I hear this song. I dont know why. Majority of it felt familiar.
Blue October "Hate Me"
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me?
It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you |
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| Life can be a bitch. |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|01:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  loved | ] |
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| | *~*Allman Brothers Band= Midnight Rider*~* | ] |
Too many things at once for this girl to handle. Weddings, family in the hospital, family with a burned house, a sucky job, no money, and a hurting fiance.
I dont like to complain. I dont like to be the person who whines about how much shit they got themselves into. But when everything crashed at once, I shut down. I whine. I complain.
Problems solve one at a time. Slow ass pace. Just enough time for something else to be added to my stress.
I was sick last weekend, but i find myself wanting to vomit whenever I get busy. I want to get away from it all. I want a freakin vacation.
This has been my month in a nutshell. Or 4 random "paragraghs".
The good news is I threw a successful bridal shower for Sara. And followed up tonight with a dinner and a movie date with the most handsome fiance around.
Brad, you're my hero. I love you more than anything.
I see you guys retching, and the girls awwing. Knock it off. I'm in love. |
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| Let the stress begin! |
[May. 9th, 2005|07:47 pm] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Anything FRANTIC!!!! | ] |
My friend just called. Yeah, she's having her wedding July 9th.
Two months from now. This only happened hours ago.
SO, Meghann gets recruited to do the cake. And be maid of honor. Do you KNOW what goes into that?
Sigh.
So anywho, I'm scrambling to find cake ideas, a pink dress, and food for the bridal shower.
In two months.
Double sigh.
Keep me in your thoughts folks. This ought to be interesting. |
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[Apr. 1st, 2005|10:07 pm] |
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Mitch Hedberg died two days ago. That sucks.
If anyone doesnt know who he was, he was one of the funniest comedians I've ever heard.
Famous for one liners and random jokes:
"I think Pringles were oringinally set out to make tennis balls. But one day instead of plastic they got a truck full of potatos. And Pringles, being laid back as they are, say "Fuck it, slice 'em up!"
"Elevators never really break down. They just become stairs. The sign should say "Elevator temporarily stairs. Sorry for the convenice." "
He was a cool guy. Funny guy. Brad and I were lucky to see him November of last year. What a bummer.
Yeah, he wasnt the Pope or nothing, but still...bums you out... |
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| Sigh... |
[Mar. 30th, 2005|11:19 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | *~* Deftones- Be Quiet and Drive (Far Away) *~* | ] |
I'm bored.
I'm lonely. I miss my boy.
I need a hug.
I need his arms around me.
Its only been 4 days and I hurt without him.
I can honestly say I've never been like this about anyone.
4 days. God, I'm pathetic.
Can I have some remedy?
All I need is a remedy.... |
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